I'm back!

Well I'm finally back online with blogging. I haven't had much going on for the past month.

Been stuck at home...nothing else...

Back on track. I have my behind the wheel test on the 8th of next month. Been practicing, but I'm not getting my hopes up. I'll try my best and hope I pass.

Haven't made much progress with social things from the conflict of sitting at home all day. I've been to a couple parties. Nothing big. More like kickbacks with 7-8 people. Better than I was, yah know?

I'm super psyched for Shwayze's new CD "Let it beat" thats coming out.

Till next time,
Glenn

Life just got a little better.

Sorry I haven't updated this lately. I've been studying for my Driver's license.

Well yesterday, I went down to the DMV and applied for a license. Waited in there forever, and finally got up to the window to take my test into the room and take it. About 10 minutes later I was done and waited in line for the guy to look over my answers.

I missed 3, new applicants can miss 6...So I passed =D. I was surprised because almost everyone I know had to take it at least 2 or more times to pass it. Studying actually helps kids...haha.

Met a girl there; She was a latino girl with long black hair...yummm. I was waiting in line and I shifted my direction to look somewhere else and I see her at the corner of my eye, playing with her hair, and eye-balling me up and down. So I say "hi" with a smile and we fluff talk for a bit. She was really receptive. It was my turn up in line before I could get her number. Fuck. Getting better though.

Going to take my Behind-the-wheel soon, then I'm getting my car soon after. Once I get my car i'll improve majorly. My friend scoped out a new place in Huntington Beach and that looks like our new man cave. =]

Still keeping this bitch posted!,
Glenn

A very useless week at home.

Ever since I've gotten back from Pasadena I've been stuck at home. I haven't been out the house for a whole week. It's becoming very nerve-racking, I have all this time to improve; yet I have no car or ride anywhere.

Hopefully things will look up this weekend or next week. I still have the "I don't give a fuck attitude" state of mind I've always wanted, and it's here to stay.

Peace,
Glenn

Full turn around.

Cue blog music!



So after that day of moping and feeling like utter shit. My friend decided we should take E one last time (I know I fucked up). During the comedown day and being awoken by my friend fucking the shit out of his girlfriend made me completely turn my whole mindset around. I learned the mindset he has is the "I don't give a fuck what you think, but I'm also a nice guy with sexual urges." So I made a full promise not to give a FUCKING SHIT what people think of me.

I feel absolutely amazing. Fucking amazing.

It feels like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. I no longer care what people think of me. Of course this sudden change of pace as soon as I head home for the weekend, but I sure do feel changes happening within me.

Keeping promises to myself have always been a issue, but my mindset has totally fucking changed. I can't tell you how liberated I am right now.

What I am doing:
Not giving a shit!

That's it.

Gonna keep this bitch posted fo sho!

Yo nigga,
Glenn

Fucking pissed off and fed up with it all.

I haven't made ANY progress this week. I feel like just giving up...but I know that it will lead me nowhere. My shyness still draws me back from talking to random people. I'm seriously getting fed up with this personality.

Like the other night, We went to go hang with my girl-friends cute friend. What do I do? Just sit in the back and stay quiet. I mean WHAT THE FUCK? I probably lost all my chances with her.

I'm just keeping my mindset on getting better. Need some help with this whole pick-up thing. Ahh well...I can only count on myself.

Things I WILL do:

Talking to anyone I see. Girl or Guy

Smile with eye contact.

Kino.

Close as far as I can with a girl or guy (guys give opportunities towards more girls)

Just talk about anything

and the last one with the most meaning....DO NOT GIVE A FUCK WHAT PEOPLE THINK OF ME.

I'm promising myself I will make progress from no on. No excuses, no more being a little bitch about this situation.

Home for the weekend...next week back to pasadena.

Well I'm home for the weekend right now. Leaving tomorrow for another city adventure.

Next week consists of job searching, clubbing, and hanging out with my girl-friend's cute friend. Who also thinks I'm cute. I'm not going to over-think thinks. I'm going to put my personality out on the line. Better to expose all of myself and get turned down, then to be shy and get turned down. I'm going to start cold approaches too. This is difficult because most girls that look my age end up being too young or too old. Oh well, practice makes perfect.

Things I'm improving on:
More eye contact
More talking than before

Things I need to improve on:
Smiling while making eye contact (I get focused on just making eye contact)
Become even BETTER with talking
Kino! (This is a huge one for me, I need to touch them more, in a non-threatening way)
Express my sexuality.
Escalate, Escalate, Escalate.

Well this week is gonna be very eventful. Gonna make the most of it and escalate, escalate, escalate.

I would say wish me luck...but this has nothing to do with luck. I'm taking control of my life. Keeping this updated throughout next week.

Till next tizzle,
Glizzle

In pasadena

Well, I can honestly say I love pasadena and DO plan on living here. Haven't made much progress, but asking businesses for applications and jobs is slowly changing me.

I introduced myself to my friends hot roommate. She seemed pretty responsive to my move. Then their was this hottie at Baskin Robbins. I should have made a fucking move! She was giving me dinner bowl dog eyes and totally vibing me. Should have got her fucking number.

Other than that the week has consisted of job searching and hanging out with my friends at dead zones. Should be back here next week. I'm noticing changes in me.

I'm waaay more social

I'm always having fun

More progress than I would have imagined.

Till next time,

Glenn